Trust

has any one ever noticed that no matter how much work you put into a relationship, your partner never really trust you? we spend all this time building and then we realize that we have to fix all the problems caused by lovers in their past. I'm getting a little tired of it. .......ok so im kinda in love now and that had changed my perspective about everything. 

i spent the past 2 years doing the single thing and when love finally came back around, i was ready to jump back in, damn near head first in shallow water. over the past 3 months i have learned new things about myself and about me and how i work in a relationship, but like always this trust thing always finds a way to creep up and mess things up. 

i think im trying to convince myself that i can make him trust he, but i know deep down inside that i have no control over it and its killing me.  

i decided that blogging would be the answer for me to find the answers to what i need right now. i guess i'll keep the world informed as to whats going on in my life and get free counseling without the bills....